A better one. So you will bow down, and profess your love unto me.Tumblr (3.0; @mynameiscastiel)http://mynameiscastiel.tumblr.com/<p><a class="tumblr_blog" href="http://bringmepiebitch.tumblr.com/post/36545358211/mynameiscastiel-bringmepiebitch-no-fucking">bringmepiebitch</a>:</p> <blockquote> <p><a class="tumblr_blog" href="http://mynameiscastiel.tumblr.com/post/36542498042/bringmepiebitch-no-fucking-way-he-growls">mynameiscastiel</a>:</p> <blockquote> <p><a class="tumblr_blog" href="http://bringmepiebitch.tumblr.com/post/36540671651/mynameiscastiel-bringmepiebitch">bringmepiebitch</a>:</p> <blockquote> <p>“No fucking way,” he growls.  “They’ll rip you to pieces.  I’m not gonna hide back there like some fucking coward.”</p> </blockquote> <p>“Dean,” he says pleadingly. “It’s me they want. You’ll stand more of a chance of getting out of here alive.”</p> </blockquote> <p>“Don’t fucking argue with me, Cas.  I ain’t going,” he snarls, gripping his weapon.</p> </blockquote> <p>Cas swallows, nodding. &#8220;Fine. But stay behind me. Please.&#8221;</p> <p>He touches Dean&#8217;s shoulder, grip firm. If Dean is here, they have more of a chance of surviving, both of them. But if things get really bad, Cas will use some of his Grace to transport the human out of here, safe while the Leviathan are distracted.</p>http://mynameiscastiel.tumblr.com/post/42861460621http://mynameiscastiel.tumblr.com/post/42861460621Mon, 11 Feb 2013 15:16:45 -0500<p><a class="tumblr_blog" href="http://bringmepiebitch.tumblr.com/post/36540671651/mynameiscastiel-bringmepiebitch">bringmepiebitch</a>:</p> <blockquote> <p>“No fucking way,” he growls.  “They’ll rip you to pieces.  I’m not gonna hide back there like some fucking coward.”</p> </blockquote> <p>&#8220;Dean,&#8221; he says pleadingly. &#8220;It&#8217;s me they want. You&#8217;ll stand more of a chance of getting out of here alive.&#8221;</p>http://mynameiscastiel.tumblr.com/post/36542498042http://mynameiscastiel.tumblr.com/post/36542498042Sun, 25 Nov 2012 17:09:48 -0500<p><a class="tumblr_blog" href="http://bringmepiebitch.tumblr.com/post/36539393902/mynameiscastiel-bringmepiebitch-shit-he">bringmepiebitch</a>:</p> <blockquote> <p><a class="tumblr_blog" href="http://mynameiscastiel.tumblr.com/post/36539256538/bringmepiebitch-shit-he-mutters-gripping">mynameiscastiel</a>:</p> <blockquote> <p><a class="tumblr_blog" href="http://bringmepiebitch.tumblr.com/post/36493286133/mynameiscastiel-bringmepiebitch-he-grunts">bringmepiebitch</a>:</p> <blockquote> <p>“Shit,” he mutters, gripping his makeshift weapon tight as the steps get closer, more menacing.  “Come on, Cas.  Let’s rip into these bastards. Fuckin’ big mouths…”</p> </blockquote> <p>Cas’ eyes are wide in fear, gripping the angelic sword. “Dean…I’m not…powerful enough.”</p> </blockquote> <p>Dean clenches his jaw, nodding, and steps in front of Cas protectively.  “I’ll take care of ‘em.”</p> </blockquote> <p>&#8220;Dean, <em>no</em>,&#8221; he growls, clutching his sword tighter. &#8220;Go to the back of the cave. They won&#8217;t be able to smell you. If anything&#8230;if anything happens to me, hide there until they leave.&#8221; </p>http://mynameiscastiel.tumblr.com/post/36540035019http://mynameiscastiel.tumblr.com/post/36540035019Sun, 25 Nov 2012 16:39:34 -0500<p><a class="tumblr_blog" href="http://bringmepiebitch.tumblr.com/post/36493286133/mynameiscastiel-bringmepiebitch-he-grunts">bringmepiebitch</a>:</p> <blockquote> <p>“Shit,” he mutters, gripping his makeshift weapon tight as the steps get closer, more menacing.  “Come on, Cas.  Let’s rip into these bastards. Fuckin’ big mouths…”</p> </blockquote> <p>Cas&#8217; eyes are wide in fear, gripping the angelic sword. &#8220;Dean&#8230;I&#8217;m not&#8230;powerful enough.&#8221;</p>http://mynameiscastiel.tumblr.com/post/36539256538http://mynameiscastiel.tumblr.com/post/36539256538Sun, 25 Nov 2012 16:30:10 -0500<p><a class="tumblr_blog" href="http://bringmepiebitch.tumblr.com/post/36480723854/mynameiscastiel-bringmepiebitch-dean">bringmepiebitch</a>:</p> <blockquote> <p>He grunts, shaking his head clear.  “What?  Yeah, I’m fine.”  He sits up, pulling his dirty coat back on.  “What’s that noise?”</p> </blockquote> <p>Cas swallows, eyes going wide, mouth dry. He clutches his sword, stepping in front of Dean protectively, uttering only one word.</p> <p>&#8220;Leviathan.&#8221;</p>http://mynameiscastiel.tumblr.com/post/36481282150http://mynameiscastiel.tumblr.com/post/36481282150Sat, 24 Nov 2012 22:40:24 -0500<p><a class="tumblr_blog" href="http://bringmepiebitch.tumblr.com/post/36228729371/mynameiscastiel-bringmepiebitch-dean-jerks">bringmepiebitch</a>:</p> <blockquote> <p>Dean startles, jerking awake.  His hands swing out in defense, a hunter’s instinct, barely missing the wall next to him.  The noises outside still and Dean looks around, disoriented for a moment.  “Cas?”</p> </blockquote> <p>Cas looks wild and alert, looking at him in worry. &#8220;Are you all right?&#8221;</p>http://mynameiscastiel.tumblr.com/post/36251791152http://mynameiscastiel.tumblr.com/post/36251791152Wed, 21 Nov 2012 20:40:53 -0500<p><a class="tumblr_blog" href="http://bringmepiebitch.tumblr.com/post/36174570183/mynameiscastiel-bringmepiebitch-night-he">bringmepiebitch</a>:</p> <blockquote> <p>Dean jerks with night tremors, thrashing in his sleep and reaching around wildly for a non-existent knife in the dark.  Bushes shake outside, as if reacting to the noise, the sound growing closer, like formidable steps.</p> </blockquote> <p>Cas hears the sounds, alert. He turns to Dean, eyes wide with concern, but Dean&#8217;s noises are what&#8217;s attracting them. He doesn&#8217;t want to physically wake Dean if he doesn&#8217;t have to, so instead he semi-shouts his name, forceful. &#8220;Dean!&#8221;</p>http://mynameiscastiel.tumblr.com/post/36184970169http://mynameiscastiel.tumblr.com/post/36184970169Tue, 20 Nov 2012 22:11:45 -0500<p><a class="tumblr_blog" href="http://bringmepiebitch.tumblr.com/post/36118949193/mynameiscastiel-bringmepiebitch-he-swallows">bringmepiebitch</a>:</p> <blockquote> <p>“Night,” he murmurs with a frown, not catching the last bit.  He curls up against the wall, burying his face into the coat as he closes his eyes.</p> </blockquote> <p>Cas hears him falling asleep, glancing up at him every now and then as the time ticks by. He gets lost in his thoughts, finishing the sigils after a couple hours, unsure of what to do. Ideas float in his mind, replaying the memories of the souls&#8212;of him&#8212;doing all of those terrible things. To his brothers, to the humans, to Dean&#8230;</p>http://mynameiscastiel.tumblr.com/post/36154232602http://mynameiscastiel.tumblr.com/post/36154232602Tue, 20 Nov 2012 15:04:01 -0500Should we bring in other characters?I doubt other people are still here hehOooooh we should bring Benny inAnd by bring in I mean one of us rps as him but I have no idea<p><a class="tumblr_blog" href="http://bringmepiebitch.tumblr.com/post/36117808778/mynameiscastiel-bringmepiebitch-for-what">bringmepiebitch</a>:</p> <blockquote> <p>He swallows and nods slowly, chewing on the inside of his cheek.  “Uh, yeah.  Ditto,” he mumbles.</p> </blockquote> <p>It overwhelms Castiel then, the sadness and the emotions. It feels too much like they&#8217;re saying goodbye, but for Cas it&#8217;s what he needs to do. For Dean&#8217;s sake. Dean should never be with someone as terrible as he is. It isn&#8217;t right.</p> <p>&#8220;Sleep well,&#8221; Castiel says, turning away from him.</p> <p>In a quiet voice, barely audible, he adds: &#8220;My beloved.&#8221;</p>http://mynameiscastiel.tumblr.com/post/36118683706http://mynameiscastiel.tumblr.com/post/36118683706Mon, 19 Nov 2012 23:21:17 -0500<p><a class="tumblr_blog" href="http://bringmepiebitch.tumblr.com/post/36117195482/mynameiscastiel-bringmepiebitch-good-he">bringmepiebitch</a>:</p> <blockquote> <p>“For what?” he asks quietly, glancing up at him.</p> </blockquote> <p>&#8220;For giving me good memories,&#8221; he says quietly, eyes filled with so much emotion, so much wistfulness. &#8220;I wish I could change the past and do everything differently. The times when&#8230;with us. They were the happiest I&#8217;ve ever been, in the millions of years I&#8217;ve existed.&#8221;</p>http://mynameiscastiel.tumblr.com/post/36117373369http://mynameiscastiel.tumblr.com/post/36117373369Mon, 19 Nov 2012 23:00:21 -0500<p><a class="tumblr_blog" href="http://bringmepiebitch.tumblr.com/post/36116560314/mynameiscastiel-bringmepiebitch-dean-nods">bringmepiebitch</a>:</p> <blockquote> <p>“Good,” he murmurs around a gulp, worried that the angel will break his promise and take off in the middle of the night.  For a moment, he looks achingly young, like a child who wants to cling to his mother, like the child Dean never got to be.  He clears his throat awkwardly and the hunter is back in place, eyes flickering to the sigils.  “You, uh, need help or anything?”</p> </blockquote> <p>&#8220;No,&#8221; Cas says, his voice gruff and hoarse. &#8220;I remember almost all the sigils, and what I don&#8217;t know, I will use my blade.&#8221;</p> <p>He glances at him, meeting Dean&#8217;s eyes, and even now, Dean&#8217;s gaze is still enchanting, and he can&#8217;t look away. &#8220;Thank you.&#8221;</p>http://mynameiscastiel.tumblr.com/post/36116755420http://mynameiscastiel.tumblr.com/post/36116755420Mon, 19 Nov 2012 22:51:01 -0500<p><a class="tumblr_blog" href="http://bringmepiebitch.tumblr.com/post/36114274309/mynameiscastiel-bringmepiebitch-dean-runs-a">bringmepiebitch</a>:</p> <blockquote> <p>Dean nods slowly, lowering himself onto the rocky ground, using his dirtied jacket as a pillow.  He closes his eyes and lets out a deep, slow, worried breath.  “Hey, Cas?” he asks quietly, peeking one eye open to look at the disheveled angel.  “Um, don’t leave me.”</p> <p>It’s much more a request than a command.  He needs to know he won’t abandon him like everyone else does, like Dean thinks everyone else will continue to do because he isn’t worth anyone’s time, not even in fucking Purgatory.</p> </blockquote> <p>Cas is quiet for a long minute, almost as if he hasn&#8217;t heard Dean. He slowly begins to draw a symbol into the ground, protection sigils against the things he knows, with his holy blade.</p> <p>He glances up at Dean, and it was supposed to be quick, just to see him, but his gaze ends up becoming soft, remembering all they are, all they had been.</p> <p>&#8220;I would never leave you,&#8221; he says, voice quiet, his meaning clear. &#8220;Even if you would be better off if I did. I would stay because you asked.&#8221;</p>http://mynameiscastiel.tumblr.com/post/36116396257http://mynameiscastiel.tumblr.com/post/36116396257Mon, 19 Nov 2012 22:45:46 -0500<p><a class="tumblr_blog" href="http://bringmepiebitch.tumblr.com/post/36112508295/mynameiscastiel-bringmepiebitch-i-aint">bringmepiebitch</a>:</p> <blockquote> <p>Dean runs a heavy hand through his hair, slumping in defeat.  The truth is, he doesn’t know what he wants.  Mostly he just wants to get out of here and figure out the rest of this shit later.  Because dammit, he still loves Cas, despite everything, even when the world is telling him he shouldn’t, but Dean’s only ever cared about Sam as much as this, and when he cares about someone, he doesn’t let them go lightly.</p> <p>“You ain’t Ruby, Cas,” he says, weary.  “C’mon, let’s try to get some shut eye, okay?  No point goin’ around in circles…”</p> </blockquote> <p>Cas doesn&#8217;t say anything, quiet and unresponsive. He&#8217;s still staring at the ground, huddled up in his bloodied white shirt from his brothers, from the somewhat innocent.</p> <p>&#8220;I don&#8217;t need sleep, Dean,&#8221; he says, even though he needs some way to recharge. He knows he can go maybe a little while without sleep, or some kind of rest. But he&#8217;s afraid he&#8217;s slowly becoming more human, that his Grace is slowly draining away in Purgatory.</p> <p>&#8220;But I will keep watch over you.&#8221;</p>http://mynameiscastiel.tumblr.com/post/36112798649http://mynameiscastiel.tumblr.com/post/36112798649Mon, 19 Nov 2012 21:56:04 -0500I knowwwwwwwwugggh just kiss already dammit<p><a class="tumblr_blog" href="http://bringmepiebitch.tumblr.com/post/36111269037/mynameiscastiel-bringmepiebitch-dean">bringmepiebitch</a>:</p> <blockquote> <p>“I ain’t settlin’,” he snaps viciously.  “Don’t fucking say that, dammit.”</p> </blockquote> <p>&#8220;It&#8217;s true,&#8221; he says, looking at the ground. &#8220;You could have anyone&#8212;anyone better. You had so much anger about Sam and Ruby. And you are with me, someone just as despicable and vile.&#8221;</p> <p>He looks at his dirty, rumpled trenchcoat, now covered in sludge from all their running. &#8220;Not that you would want to resume our relationship. I know you wouldn&#8217;t, after everything, and I don&#8217;t blame you. But if you did have any inclination, remember everything I&#8217;ve done to you, and to the people you care about.&#8221;</p>http://mynameiscastiel.tumblr.com/post/36111826860http://mynameiscastiel.tumblr.com/post/36111826860Mon, 19 Nov 2012 21:43:23 -0500<p><a class="tumblr_blog" href="http://bringmepiebitch.tumblr.com/post/36054415223/mynameiscastiel-bringmepiebitch-because">bringmepiebitch</a>:</p> <blockquote> <p>Dean chuckles derisively. the sound full of desperation and self-loathing and utter numbness after everything that’s happened.  “Well, good thing I’m a stubborn sonuvabitch,” he says, cracking a twisted smirk.</p> </blockquote> <p>&#8220;No,&#8221; Cas says, eyes downcast, voice so true and sincere, full of self-hatred. &#8220;You just think so low of yourself that you believe you have to settle for someone as terrible as I am.&#8221;</p>http://mynameiscastiel.tumblr.com/post/36110034291http://mynameiscastiel.tumblr.com/post/36110034291Mon, 19 Nov 2012 21:20:10 -0500<p><a class="tumblr_blog" href="http://bringmepiebitch.tumblr.com/post/35969943936/mynameiscastiel-bringmepiebitch-well-i">bringmepiebitch</a>:</p> <blockquote> <p>“Because,” he says firmly, like he’s said for the past thirty years anytime anyone he cares about has asked him why.  It is the Winchester logic: one word that means more than a volume of waxed poetic ever could.</p> </blockquote> <p>Cas is quiet for a moment, and doesn&#8217;t say anything. He&#8217;s lost out on everything, on Dean, on Sam. His entire family. He has no reason to stay on Earth, where he can do more damage. And the worst part is, a big part of him doesn&#8217;t care, wants to stay wherever Dean does. Wants to know him again, body, mind and soul and go back to how they used to be, when Dean loved him. But Dean&#8230;Dean couldn&#8217;t possibly ever love him again, not after all of this.</p> <p>&#8220;I wish you could just stop caring about me,&#8221; he says. &#8220;It would be much more beneficial to you.&#8221; </p>http://mynameiscastiel.tumblr.com/post/36050264266http://mynameiscastiel.tumblr.com/post/36050264266Mon, 19 Nov 2012 00:57:09 -0500<p><a class="tumblr_blog" href="http://bringmepiebitch.tumblr.com/post/35969220746/mynameiscastiel-bringmepiebitch">bringmepiebitch</a>:</p> <blockquote> <p>“Well I don’t,” he spits out in frustration. “So stop trying to make me get rid of you.  It ain’t happening.”</p> </blockquote> <p>&#8220;But <em>why</em>?&#8221; he asks, face contorted in absolute heartbreak and confusion.</p>http://mynameiscastiel.tumblr.com/post/35969353047http://mynameiscastiel.tumblr.com/post/35969353047Sun, 18 Nov 2012 01:08:19 -0500<p><a class="tumblr_blog" href="http://bringmepiebitch.tumblr.com/post/35969051499/mynameiscastiel-bringmepiebitch-the-point">bringmepiebitch</a>:</p> <blockquote> <p><a class="tumblr_blog" href="http://mynameiscastiel.tumblr.com/post/35968694426/bringmepiebitch-the-point-is-you-dont-deserve">mynameiscastiel</a>:</p> <blockquote> <p><a class="tumblr_blog" href="http://bringmepiebitch.tumblr.com/post/35959292419/mynameiscastiel-bringmepiebitch">bringmepiebitch</a>:</p> <blockquote> <p>“The point is you don’t deserve to rot down here and I’d rather go to fucking Hell again than let that happen!”  He nearly growls at him, his eyes flashing.  “So don’t fucking give up.”</p> </blockquote> <p>He shakes his head, curling up into himself tighter. “I do. The Leviathans…my brothers…they’ll hunt me. The angels I’ve killed—tortured in my name. I’m not God, Dean, and I should have never tried to be.”</p> </blockquote> <p>“Well maybe you should’ve thought about that before you downed all those damn souls!” he snaps viciously.  He shakes with anger, with <em>fury</em>.  “But dammit, Cas, I lost you once.  Don’t make me do it again.”</p> </blockquote> <p>Cas flinches at that, for once turning to look at him, looking so lost and broken, nothing like the angel in the barn. &#8220;Why do you still care? I&#8217;ve betrayed you in every way. You should&#8230;you should <em>want</em> me gone.&#8221;</p>http://mynameiscastiel.tumblr.com/post/35969141465http://mynameiscastiel.tumblr.com/post/35969141465Sun, 18 Nov 2012 01:04:10 -0500<p><a class="tumblr_blog" href="http://bringmepiebitch.tumblr.com/post/35959292419/mynameiscastiel-bringmepiebitch">bringmepiebitch</a>:</p> <blockquote> <p>“The point is you don’t deserve to rot down here and I’d rather go to fucking Hell again than let that happen!”  He nearly growls at him, his eyes flashing.  “So don’t fucking give up.”</p> </blockquote> <p>He shakes his head, curling up into himself tighter. &#8220;I do. The Leviathans&#8230;my brothers&#8230;they&#8217;ll hunt me. The angels I&#8217;ve killed&#8212;tortured in my name. I&#8217;m not God, Dean, and I should have never tried to be.&#8221;</p>http://mynameiscastiel.tumblr.com/post/35968694426http://mynameiscastiel.tumblr.com/post/35968694426Sun, 18 Nov 2012 00:55:47 -0500<p><a class="tumblr_blog" href="http://bringmepiebitch.tumblr.com/post/35897932284/mynameiscastiel-bringmepiebitch-dean-shakes">bringmepiebitch</a>:</p> <blockquote> <p><a class="tumblr_blog" href="http://mynameiscastiel.tumblr.com/post/35875946147/bringmepiebitch-dean-shakes-his-head-shaking">mynameiscastiel</a>:</p> <blockquote> <p><a class="tumblr_blog" href="http://bringmepiebitch.tumblr.com/post/35875836117/mynameiscastiel-bringmepiebitch-dean-shakes">bringmepiebitch</a>:</p> <blockquote> <p>Dean shakes his head, shaking with anger and grief and pain, wishing he could storm out into the darkness and walk this off, but who knows what’s out there lurking in the dark, waiting for a moment of weakness.  “Stop it…” he repeats again hoarsely.</p> </blockquote> <p>“If we find a way out,” he says. “I want you to leave me here. If there’s a way out for you…just leave me. I will help you find a way, but only…only to get you out.”</p> </blockquote> <p>“No,” he snarls, eyes flashing as he turns on him.  “No fucking way.  We’re both getting out and neither of us are going!  You fucking understand me?”</p> </blockquote> <p>He shakes his head. &#8220;I don&#8217;t want it. If I hurt you&#8230;what&#8217;s the point?&#8221;</p>http://mynameiscastiel.tumblr.com/post/35912358242http://mynameiscastiel.tumblr.com/post/35912358242Sat, 17 Nov 2012 10:28:08 -0500